Siddhartha

What have I been doing with myself for the past 20 years?! All this material, so-called wealth, possessions...it's all so worthless, meaningless, superficial! I've let this trivial lifestyle get to me. I used to scoff at those immersed in this shallow and empty lifestyle but look at me now. I am no better.

I recently had a terrible nightmare. Kamala has a rare songbird that she keeps in a little golden cage. In my nightmare, it became mute and then died and then I proceeded to throw it out into the street. In doing so I felt a great sadness and pain within me. I came to believe that the little songbird represented everything that was of value and goodness in me and by living this current life, I'm throwing it all away. Though the dream mentally scarred me, I'm glad I had it. It acted as a wake-up call.
I cannot continue living like this. It is deviating me from the path towards my true goal: reaching enlightenment. Without a word, I shall leave.